It’s my birthday today (36!) and the 1 year anniversary of launching my website…. which I can’t believe was only a year ago!  So much has happened this year that it blows my mind.  My entire life has changed this year, many times in many ways.  It has been wickedly challenging and amazingly beautiful.

I worked really hard on my business this year… too hard.

The paradox is that I could judge that as being what was wrong in my life but it has also brought me what is right in my life.  Many of my online relationships have turned into in person meetings and deep friendships.  I am now creating the community and life that I really want with them.  The amount of time I spent online last year created a lifestyle that I have come to realize is not supportive of the day to day life that I am now choosing AND I also can not deny the power of social media and having an online platform for making those deep connections.

That being said, I’m not willing to do it anymore.  Not like I did.  Not in isolation.  Not without putting my life, health and community first.  I know without a doubt, the less time I spend on my business the more I actually really have to offer (I might just be harder to find ).  This will have to be remedied by more help and more collaboration.

There are so many success principles that are about some level of sacrifice and perseverance.  “We entrepreneur’s are willing to spend a few years of our life like most won’t, so that we can spend the rest of our lives like most can’t.”  Honestly, I’m not willing to do it like that.  Success to me is daily.  It is not sacrificing the present for the future.  It is living a life connected with what is real and true for you today.

I’m living in an odd universe right now where I am still undergoing deconstruction of my life and what the reconstruction looks like is still unknown.  Certainly we always are living in the unknown with the illusion of a plan, and I don’t even have that right now.  I suppose if I have a plan, it is a plan to take my brother and my nieces to the airport today where I will say goodbye to them for possibly a year…. I have a plan to go to Ali’s Farm and celebrate my birthday…. I have a plan to go to Burning Man.  That’s it.

 

Reflecting on wins and celebrations this year, I am so grateful.  I am grateful that even though it hasn’t always been easy, I see everything that has happened this year as a gift…

• Created Make it Real Make it Raw Detox Blast – A virtual raw food and yoga event with a dear friend Thomas Ratdke.  Not only was the event a massive success and total blast… we couldn’t have had more fun doing it (working in partnership and collaboration works REALLY well for me!).
• I also launched the Love Letter to My Body project with the mission of raising awareness toward creating conscious relationships with our amazing temples that give us life.  This project I will admit needs lots of promoting (please help – host a Love Letter to My Body party and send in your letters!)
• I worked with an amazing group of women in my Body, Food and Love program during which I had an awakening in my own body.
• I made really hard decisions to end my relationship, sell my land and house… give up  the comfort, love, and security I had.
• Went through a very loving break-up in the name of truth so we could each follow our own paths, even though our path together was loving and supportive.
• Discovered intimacy to new depths.
• Speaking my truth, being open, vulnerable, real, raw, compassionate.
• Learning to receive love for who I am… shadows and all.

 

Intentions for this year…

• Continue to live in truth and follow my heart.
• Begin REconstruction… my life, values, business.
• Make a move based on community and lifestyle.
• Make meals with friends regularly (organic, local, farm fresh whole foods).
• Practice yoga in community regularly (no more isolation!).
• Collaborate and partner in business for fun and exceptional value.
• Work on how I show up for my family (ouch!).
• Community, connection, collaboration, creation, love, passion, intimacy, health, beauty, RADIANCE

Thank you all dearly for sharing this beautiful earth with me, for caring enough to stay tuned in through my massive shifts and for shining your light.  The world needs you!